so after 3 weeks of “i don’t know how long we’ll last, i’m confused right now”, we took a break from the relationship. this is cus the other girls aren’t including her in their boy talks and activities since she has a boyfriend. and cus she’d feel guilty doing anything that would involve boys and whatnot. it’s pretty much the same as before but now we’re just labeled single so there’s no guilt and she can get her “college experience”. i told her that i’d consider taking her back as long as she hasn’t changed and haven’t dated any other guys. then later changed it so that we could go on dates with other people, but kissing is off limits, and if that were to happen, then we would never get back.
i wanted to give out this option because who knows, maybe there is someone out there better for her or me. she says that she’d probably not going to take up on that offer though. i hope she wouldn’t, but it could happen and probably will.
not sure how long this break is going to last and how getting back together would work. when she’s done being “confused”? by next semester, i will probably be going to the same university as her. but what if i wan’t that “college experience” too? the way i see it, this break is going to last a while. if she wants to get back soon, then we’d probably have another break. for me this time
prom was fun. i can’t believe i actually got to experience it with someone special. she looked like a real princess that day.
dancing was just grinding and it was niiice until i got really sweaty cus it was so crowded. there was only one slow dance song and that was my favorite.
post prom was on a boat. it cruised along the lakefront of chicago and we got to see the city and it was beautiful.
the day after prom the prom group rented out a hotel room and we basically played there the whole time. we got some liquids and 3 of her friends got so drunk that she ended up not having a good time. i thought it was really funny though. and i was happy i got to sleep with her again even though it was really uncomfortable on the floor.
well now that prom is over, everything seems so dull. i’ve experienced something so fun and it makes me want more. more partying, more drinking, etc. instead of sitting at home.
i’m so attached to her now that it kinda sucks. i want to be with her all the time and i miss her like crazy when she’s not here. she’s everything i’ve ever wanted.
joked about dropping my iphone on her face… 2 hours later, i accidentally dropped it and it banged on the corner of her eye. she cried.